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Aaargh, I've finally completed the stuffs that I need to do but it's too late to start on Smultron now lmao. ;_;

But hey, a nice post just popped up on a comm so I'm just looking through that. Setz, your message is HUMONGOUS. GH actually translated some of it, but there's still a whole lot more lmao. OTL Just the translated part is sort of depressing lmao. Anyone game for a wall of Japanese text? |D?

俺は。
変わった。
変革した自分を自覚する。
意識の拡張。
体内組織の老化抑制。
神経系の鋭敏化。
数値や言葉にすれば、そのような肉体的変化が自分の中に確かに起こってい
る。
だが、それ以上の『何か』が、俺の中で叫ぶ。
人には生きる意味があると。
その意味に気づいたのなら、迷わずに突き進めと。
人と人とがわかりあう道を求める。

そのために生き、そのために戦う。
たとえ世界から疎まれようとも。
人の道から外れようとも。
俺は。
変革する自分を選ぶ。

戦ってきた。
戦いの中で生きてきた。
それ以外の生き方を教えられなかった。
だが、その生き方が間違っていて、俺のような人間を許容する世界が歪んで
いることはわかる。
憎みあう必要のない人間同士が命を奪いあう……そんな非道な現実が、日常
であるはずがない。

だから、俺は望んだ。
求めた。
憎みあうことなく、争いあうことなく、人と人とが当たり前に生きられる世
界を。
しかし、どうしたらそのような世界になるのか、その方法が思いつかない。

俺は、戦うことしかできないのに。
破壊することしかできないのに。
そんな俺に転機が訪れた。
戦争根絶を掲げる私設武装組織。
ソレスタルビーイング。
世界で起こる、ありとあらゆる紛争行為に対して、武力介入を行い、世界統
一を目指す。
そのために作られた機体。
戦争を戦争で駆逐する機動兵器。
ガンダム。
そのマイスターにスカウトされることにより、俺の生き方は一変した。
戦いしかできない俺に、成すべきことができた。
それは、俺の生きる『糧』だ。
そのために。
俺は、戦う。

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ー嗚呼、今思えば、それは俺の過去を償うための、個人的な行為だったように思える。
本当の意味で、俺は戦っていなかった。
目的のない人間が、目的を与えられ、それを成すことに酔いしれ、本当の意味で、
自分のやろうとしていることを理解していなかった。
ガンダムマイスターとなっても、俺は俺の人生を正しく歩んでいなかった。
違う。
すでに狂わされていたのだ。
神を信じ、欲望のために歪められた神の教義に傾倒し、それを果たすべく両親に手をかけ、
その過ちに気づいても、戦場の中を駆けるしかなかった自分。
命を救ってくれたガンダムに、未来をみた自分。
マイスターに選ばれた自分。
すべては戦争根絶を果たすため。
未来を作るために。

俺の命を救ってくれたガンダムのように。
だが、その想いは、ある男の気まぐれで、そうなるように仕向けられていた。
知らないうちに生き方を変えられていた。
俺を変えた男。
イノベイド。
リボンズ・アルマーク。
０ガンダムのマイスター。
イオリア計画を体現し、人類を導こうとする者。
だが、それは支配だ。
イノベイドの存在を知った俺は、ソレスタルビーイングが変えた世界の更なる変革を求め、
再びガンダムに乗り込む。
イオリアに託されたＧＮドライブを。
ツインドライヴ・システムを。
ガンダムを使って。
俺は変わろうとした。
計画のためでなく、俺の意志で。

朦朧とした意識の中で、ロックオン・ストラトスが俺にいった言葉を思い出す。
『…刹那、過去によって変えられるものは、現在（いま）の自分だけだ。
過去は変わらねぇ…ましてや、命は…』
しして、こうもいった。
『･･･刹那、おまえは変われ・・・変われなかった、俺の代わりに・・・』
未来のために、現在（いま）の自分を変える。

Much gratitude to anyone who does this. ;____; ♥

EDIT:
I Google Translate'd it. D: So it's not accurate lmfao, but here's the gist?? Wonky translations bracket'd.

I have
changed.
I'm aware of how much I have changed.
Expansion of consciousness.
Supression of my body's aging.
The increased sensitivity of my nervous system.
If I put it into numbers and words, it's those sorts of material changes that have surely occurred inside me.
But, beyond that "something" is calling out from within me.
That there is a reason that people are alive.
[And that] if I've noticed that reason, I have to push on without hesitation.
To pursue the path by which people can understand one another.

To live for that reason, to fight for it
Even if I am abandoned by the world
[ Even if I am cast out of society ]
I
chose to change myself.

I have fought
I live to fight
I was not taught how else to live
However, I know this is not the right way to live
as the existence of people like myself is causing the distortion in the world.
Humans killing one another over unnecessary hatred...this atrocious reality should not be allowed to become a routine thing.

That's why I hope.
Begged [Prayed?]
For a world where people can live peacefully with one another, where hatred and conflict does not exist.
Yet, I do not understand why such a world cannot exist.

I, I can only fight.
I can only destroy.
I came to a turning point.
The private paramilitary organization advocating the eradication of war.
Celestial Being.
Performing armed intervention to any conflicts that arises in any part of the world, and aiming for the unity of the world
The Mobile Suit that was designed for this purpose.
Mobile weapons built for eradicating war.
Gundam.
Ever since I was scouted to be a Gundam Meister, my life has undergone tremendous changes.
I, who was otherwise powerless, was given the ability to fight
[This is the force driving my life.]
For that reason,
I will fight.

In a way, this is my personal way of atoning for the sins I have commited in the past
The truth is, I did not fight.
People with no aim, when given a purpose, will immerse themselves in it even though they do not understand what they want to do [are supposed to do?] in reality.
Becoming a Gundam Meister, I had not lived my life right.
Wrong.
It was already wrong from the start.
I believed in God, committed myself to the doctrine of God which was tainted by greed, proved my loyalty by killing my own parents
Becoming aware of my own mistakes, I fought on the battlefield by myself
My life was saved by Gundam, and I was given a future.
I was chosen to become a Meister.
All of this for the sake of eradication of war.
All of this for the sake of building a future.

My belief that I was saved by Gundam
was influenced and shaped by a man.
[ I did not notice that my life was changed ]
The man who changed me
Innovade
Ribbons Almark
The Meister of O Gundam
The one to bring Aeolia Schenburg's plan to fruition, and the one to lead humanity
However, this is [ruling?? leading?]
I knew of the Innovades' existence, and I wished to press for reform in the world Celestial Being changed
so I piloted Gundam again.
I piloted a Gundam
with the GN Drive Aeolia entrusted to us,
and the Twin Drive System
Not for the sake of the plan, but because of my own will.

At the back of my consciousness, I remember the words Lockon Stratos spoke to me
"...Setsuna, the present is in our hands, but we can't change the past,
much less life..." [[Well, this is the part where Setz dreams of Lockon and Lockon tells him the same things, I don't have the English subs with me so you can refer to that lmao >___> Tell me the right translation XD]]
I will do this, like you said.
"...Setsuna, you must change. For me who could not do the same."
For the sake of the future, I have to change my present self.

EDIT:
PFFF I'm done. ]: If there's anymore I will flip tables and continue work tomorrow or something lmao.

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Edit: ahahaha nvm /punches self

Edited 2009-07-07 13:14 (UTC)

D:?

LJ isn't sending notifs. Weird.

Setz, your message is HUMONGOUS.

Hahaha, I said the same thing. It's not even like he's dying or anything.

At least we know Allelujah's or Lyle's messages aren't going to be long.

Lol I google translate'd it. D:

And yeah, not even Tieria's was this long, was it? I know it was another block of text, but this looks bigger. o_O

jgdlskgjs WHAT I just saw the continuation posted by

furato. *DED*

Edited 2009-07-07 13:37 (UTC)

I did that too and it made me really sad.

Tieria actually has more to his message, something for Saji and about the GN drives. Oh well, Setsuna IS the main character after all. :P

Fffff a message to Saji. I'd like to see that. |D

"Saji Crossroad. I apologise for slaping you, but in the end it was all for the better."

Btw, if anyone translates the other parts, will you post a comment in the main comm?

LMAO Tieria's tough love. |D

o.o? Post a comment?

Err, I meant if you can copy/paste the translation in case someone does it.

ANYWAY. GH translated a part of it, so the only thing left is the one added by

furato.

D'oh. Just noticed you updated.

Ffff, it looks like my friend just gave me an edit, so I'll edit it when I'm up. I'm heading to sleep now, but I'll c/p it when I'm up and someone has done it. |D

Haha, np. Good night! :)

I've seen Lyle/Neil's conversation actually... All the monologues were actually leaked some time ago but since there's no confirmation, I never post it anywhere and didn't save it either. ^^; In that one there's something about Lyle who used to be cynical and then about Anew and ends with Neil calling "Lyle... no, Lockon Stratos". And then in another version I saw yesterday, there's something about Neil asking Lyle to get along/take care/etc with Setsuna. (d'awww)

Also, the LQ pic I have of Setsuna's end at 俺は、戦う。 so either the rest is fake or there are more pages.

Oooh, I heard of the "Lyle... no, Lockon Stratos", but totally forgot about it. Let's hope the guys from 2ch are nice enough to share!

And is Setsuna facing a mirror in the one you have?

Yes, that one.

The increased sensitivity of my nervous system.

I don't know why I am so amused by this.

I have fought
I live to fight

I think "I have fought // I lived in the fighting" is closer.

"this atrocious reality should not be allowed to become a routine thing."
Since it's 日常であるはずがない, it's more like "should not be a routine thing" and not "become" (the latter would be になる I think)

しかし、どうしたらそのような世界になるのか、その方法が思いつかない。
Yet, I do not understand why such a world cannot exist.
Yet, I cannot think of a way for such a world to exist
(どうしたら is more or less 怎样才能够)
(そのような世界になる → to become such a world; but it wouldn't work in English)

俺は、戦うことしかできないのに。
破壊することしかできないのに。
そんな俺に転機が訪れた。
The "のに" at the end of first two lines roughly means "even if"
"Even if I can only fight
Even if (I) can only destroy
'That' me came to a turning point"

戦いしかできない俺に、成すべきことができた。
I, who was otherwise powerless, was given the ability to fight
I who could only fight, could do/accomplish that thing (I suppose eradicate conflict??)

lmao fail jap. XD I wouldn't be able to get these if not for the already-up-there English parts. XD;

jgldkjsga THANK YOU ;____; ♥ Heading to sleep now, but I'll edit them tomorrow. D| THANK YOU AGAIN!!!

lol, that's one long monologue/soliloquy, Setsuna. ~~It's even longer than Hamlet's, and he loves talking to himself~~ He's also very wordy and repetitive. He could just say:

"I have changed ~~because Lockon came in a dream and told me to~~. I only knew how to fight, and fighting is bad/wrong. Gundams came to the rescue. ~~I became Gundam~~ Gundams saved me and my beliefs, oh and Ribbons helped too. And now I fight because I want to, for the future."

There, isn't that SO much more clear?

LMFAO XDDDD yeah, pretty much. ): He's running out of new stuffs to say.

LOOOL I love Setsuna's TL;DR monologues :(

Lmao he says the same things every time. XDDDD FIGHTING IS BAD BUT IT'S THE ONLY THING I CAN DO BUT NAO I CHANGE.

HAHAHA SOB YES

LIKE A BROKEN RECORD

with horrible dialogue, no less